Tomorrow is my blood test-by tomorrow afternoon I'll have received a phone call confirming a pregnancy, or a phone call that delivers a harsh blow.
A friend asked me a few days ago if I felt that because of the blog, and my desire to be open about infertility, I felt like I had to share the results of the cycle. I'm sure some of you are wondering that too-it is quite taboo to announce your pregnancy so early on. The problem is, when you're open about a current struggle with infertility and you openly talk about your cycle and the great lengths you go through to attempt to get pregnant, you reach a point in the cycle where the only thing left to talk about is yes or no. The nature of infertility is that there are a lot more nos than yeses, and how open would I be if I hid the results from you? How would I be spreading awareness if I shielded you from the harsh realities of infertility? All I ever wanted was to spread awareness and sensitivity, and if I don't allow you to go through my nos, then I'm doing a disservice not only to myself, but to you as well.
I want to give a completely honest, in real time experience for others, to help #endthetaboo that surrounds infertility. And in order for that to happen, part of you has to go through an infertile's journey too.
And just a reminder, for me and for you, there is beauty in this journey, I like to call it My Rose Among Thorns
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