Monday, June 20, 2016

An Update...

Holidays, end of the school year rush, a key note address, and life all got in the way of me updating on the miscarriage.  

On June 6 I called to let my doctor know that I didn't think the pills he had given me all.  He told me to expect a heavy period, and I had hardly any bleeding.  The pills are specifically meant to cause contractions, and I had hardly a single cramp.
So they told me to come in the next day.

On June 7 I went in, and at first, my doctor tried to reassure me that because I did have bleeding, the tissue probably did come out.  I explained that we must not be on the same page if he thinks the little bleeding I did have was the heavy period he told me I'd have.  He was going to do an ultrasound anyway, and again, by the look on his face I knew! And then he said, the customer is always right! 
Confirmation-the tissue still remained.  

On Thursday June 9, I went in to have the tissue removed.  It was done like an endometrial biopsy-so through the cervix into the uterus, the tissue was suctioned out.  It was painless, but let me explain.  Once the cervix dilates for childbirth, the pain of going into the uterus goes away. Before, when I had my first endometrial biopsy, I about flew off the table.  Thankfully, considering it was enough tissue he had to go in twice, I didn't feel more than the speculum.  All physical evidence of the pregnancy was removed then, but I'm going on my 4th post-miscarriage blood test to monitor my dropping HCG levels.  

For all these weeks I've been tired, had food aversions, and of course cravings. And I couldn't understand why I wasn't back to my normal self, and then it dawned on me.  I still had high enough hormone levels to be considered pregnant, so even though I technically wasn't, my body was still in procession of enough pregnancy hormone to get a positive pregnancy test-which explained all the remaining pregnancy symptoms.  Just this past week did I return to eating normal foods, with some minor aversions.  I'm still very tired, and find myself unable to get up as early in the mornings as before, but I'm working on changing that.  

I return for another blood test on Thursday, which should be my last post-miscarriage blood test.  
I began birth control in preparation for the next transfer (date TBD), so I'm essentially being double monitored and while I'm getting over the loss, I'm also gearing up for another cycle, which has definitely made all of this easier.  

I'm just so thankful I can move right along.  We have to see how things progress on the hormone front to know when the soonest a transfer will be reasonable, right now it's up in the air.  

Monday, June 6, 2016

Monday Munchies...

There's a Jewish holiday coming up, most classically associated with cheesecake and lots of dairy.  I'm looking forward to hosting a meal with friends, and I'm so excited to make a dairy meal for a change.  I was brainstorming all the possibilities, as I'm looking to add in some new items to my standard dairy meal.  And then it hit me, waffles!  I just bought a waffle iron, and this is the perfect opportunity to break it in.  

Classic Belgian Waffles

Classic Belgian Waffles 
2 cups cake flour
2 teaspoons baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
4 large eggs, separated
2 tablespoons sugar
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
4 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted
2 cups milk

In one bowl, sift flour, baking powder and salt.  In another bowl beat egg yolks and sugar until sugar is dissolved and eggs are pale yellow in color.  Add in vanilla, butter, and milk and whisk.  Combine the two bowls and mix until just blended, being careful not to over mix.  In a third bowl, beat egg whites with an electric mixer until soft peaks form, usually one minute.  Fold the egg whites into the batter, careful not to over mix.  Coat the waffle iron with non-stick spray, and pour enough batter in-only covering the grid.  Cook per waffle iron instructions, about 2-3 minutes.  

Because I can't use the waffle iron on the holiday, I'm going to attempt to make them ahead of time, freeze, and then defrost.  

But, I can't wait tor the best part! The waffle bar!  

Some ingredients I plan on using: 
homemade caramel sauce
chocolate syrup
chocolate chips
white chocolate chips 
whipped cream
mini marshmallows 
shredded coconut  

Waffle Bar | - Waffles aren't just for breakfast any more! A waffle bar is great any time – for breakfast, dessert or a late night snack. Make it extra fun by challenging guests to get out of their comfort zones a bit and try toppings like cranberry, brie and bacon . . . mmm-mm.:
This is a good guide to setting up your waffle bar 


Who knew you could make waffles out of cake mix?!? That sounds delicious!

A good theme for this time of year...

Wedding waffle bar:

I think I found the theme of my next party! 

Happy Eating!

Friday, June 3, 2016

And the (miscarriage) saga continues...

I'm kind of in a bad place right now, so I don't have so much to say, other than just an update... I'm typing this while I shove my face, wishing it was with donuts.  Because, #nationaldonutday and I don't have a freaking donut!  I think I'm going to go back to being my pessimistic self-I was so convinced it had worked.  But then, on Thursday, by the scrunched up look on my doctor's face, I knew it wasn't over.  
You still didn't pass a large amount of tissue..see? as he turns the black and white ultrasound machine towards me.  
Cytotec is 90% successful...

Although I passed the gestational sac, it's just as important to pass the lining.  

I finally mustered up the courage to ask about cycling again in August....silence, a swivel in the chair to look at the calendar, and finally a "yeah..."
But, I'm not even going to talk about those plans now because I'm so sure I'll go in Thursday to be told I need a D&C anyway.  

I'm now taking methylergonovine, which is a really small pill, taken orally, three times a day for three days.  Because I was no longer cramping, his thought was that I wouldn't spontaneously be passing anymore tissue, so this pill is supposed to cause uterine contractions, which will help expel what's left.  So far, I've had three pills and I'm relatively cramp free-which is why I'm not holding my breath.  
But, I need to stop throwing a pity party for myself, stop stuffing my face with crap, pull up my big girl panties (including the big girl pad) and go back to living my life.  Hopefully starting on Sunday I can go back to my normal routine.  I can tell the pregnancy hormone is leaving my system as I don't have any cravings and I'm able to tolerate my regular foods, not nearly as tired, and no breast tenderness.  So, I'm hoping that beginning Sunday, I can resume normal life again.

And hope it continues smoothly that way for the next couple of months!   

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Another Organizational Project

Costumes weren't the only thing getting re-organized around here!  Megan recently re-organized her spices, and she mentioned expiration dates, and it never really occurred to me that spices expired!  Imagine my shock and surprise when I discovered I had spices that expired in 2008! Holy Moly!  It was a little bittersweet of a moment for me, throwing out expired spices.  Back in 2007, my Bubby and Zayde gave me a pantry worth of spices as a sort of gag gift for my bridal shower.  However,  several of those spices went unopened, or were still not empty, but were long past their expiration date.  There were some moments of reflection, and reminders that my Zayde isn't kept only in those spices, he's kept inside of me, and it was ok to throw them away.   

What really excited me about this project was the uniformity that was created.  My spices are housed on my wall in a small wall-mounted rack.  I actually spray painted this one metallic to match the other decor, and I love the way it turned out many years ago!

But, because my spices were in their original containers, it just looked like a major eye sore.  So when Megan highlighted these small glass containers and chalk board labels, I knew it would create the uniformity I craved.  It also is nice to have the glass jar with an air tight seal.  So many of my spices didn't actually close and dust would build up along the edges, so I'm sure some of it would make it's way into our food here and there.  I just want to note that I was at IKEA yesterday, and they have their own glass spice jars! #winning 

Organized Spices 

Step #1 was to come up with a list of the typical, necessary kitchen spices.  Of course some exotic need might arise, and that's fine, I bought extra jars, or the less used spices can be kept in the closet.  Here is a list I compiled after doing a quick internet search, I've also added to the list other spices I had on hand that I would like to keep in my kitchen:

Bay Leaves           Black Pepper          Cayenne Pepper         Chili Powder              Cinnamon         Ground Cloves     Cloves                     Cumin                         Curry Powder            Cream of Tartar Ginger                  Salt                         Nutmeg                        Oregano                     Paprika                   Red Pepper          Rosemary               Sesame seeds               Thyme                         Allspice             Celery seed         Cinnamon Sticks     Poppy Seeds                Tumeric                      Basil 
Garlic                  Onion Powder        Minced Onion           Minced Garlic             Parsley Flakes Sweet Paprika      Mint                      Xnathum Gum           Ground Corrianer 

Thankfully I have a super willing husband who oh-so willingly cleaned all of these pesky jars and lids!  I used these chalk board pencils to label each jar, and then I filled away!

 Here's the thing, and this might not be the project for you of this bothers you: waste.  I don't have room to "prettify" my spices, but then have to store the remainder that doesn't fit.  This project made me realize that I definitely do not run through my spices, and it's probably better to buy smaller containers, but to throw out whatever is left over after filling the container because it won't be fresh anyway by the time I get around to using it.  My mom would not approve, but for me, having a nice organized space, far outweighs what others might view as practicality of saving the entire container of spices.  I also mentioned that I think it's much better to have the spices in a glass, sealed container.  

For now, I'm enjoying my newly organized spices!
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