Sunday, April 7, 2013

The snowball effect...

I'm in a rut. 
I'm Type A, and when one thing is out of my control-it's all out of my control.  

With this recent anatomy scan scare (which I'm still trying to accept, compartmentalize, and move on for the time being), it's got me thinking about everything else I have to worry about.  Because, of course, if one thing is bad, everything else must be going down the tubes too.

This is my current list of worries:
the baby
my job for next year
the increased cost of childcare for next year
a new bedtime routine
a new daytime routine-because I need to start exercising and spending time with Stella & Dot
having my kids spend more time with books instead of the TV
eating healthier 
creating a more versatile lunch and dinner menu
organizing my garage 
organizing the toys/ IKEA expedit unit
figuring out what baby things we need (I know it's baby #3, but....)
getting back on top of a regular cleaning schedule (my husband pointed out how badly the upstairs needed vacuumed-guess sweeping weekly isn't enough...)

Basically, I'm just not able to compartmentalize bad things.  When one bad thing happens, I feel defeated in all aspects of my life.  I know a lot of these daily struggles are things that every parent struggles with.  I also know that with time, these things will get taken care of.  I will have what I need for the baby.  I have no reason to think my job is at all in jeopardy, it's just something I worry about because I have to wait until June to find out if I'm rehired-just like everyone else. 

I know things will work out, but when the going gets tough, I don't want to be tough and get going, I just want to throw in the towel.  

Just keep on keeping on.... 

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